TEMPLE!

OHkay. So, the explaination to my continuous temple posts.

NO, Neal and I are not engaged.

However, I had a dream last night that I went to the temple for my endowment. OH GOODNESS! I have had this drive and longing and excitement building in me all day! It's all I've been able to think about! It's ridiculous!!!!!

Oh :) I'm so excited! Patience. It's a difficult thing right now :) It's something I've been waiting for, for a very long time. The day is within sight (although, I don't know exactly what day it will be...) and it is making me more "anxious excited" than ever before!

Luckily, I get to at least be on the grounds tomorrow. Yay!

My mom laughed at me when I told her though. Her comment was "what's funny is that it will probably be NOTHING like you've imagined".

Don't care! Still excited!

Everyday, you save my life.

Let me start this one out by saying, "poor Neal." Poor kid puts up with A LOT. Especially this last month.

I go through these points in time where I feel like nothing I do is good enough, and that it never will be. I go into fits of tears, and everything and anything that is said that I think is critisim gets blown out of proportion (even if that wasn't the intent).

So, Neal, being the wonderful man that he is, is doing his very best to attempt to help me see myself in a positive light. Bless his heart.

But, his persistence combined with a reminder that there is a reason we have a Savior, is paying off. And for that, I am grateful.

On a different note....

We went on a date to the Candlelight on Friday night. Neal humored me and got dressed up in a suit because I wanted SO badly to dress up in one of my formal dresses. Not only did he do that, but he suprised me with a red rose. Now, this may not seem like much, but I have NEVER received a single flower from a person I was in the process of dating. This absolutely made my night!

He's a good man, and he's good to me. I never show him as much gratitude as I should. He keeps me sane and shows me unconditional love (even if it's tough love...like forcing me to do my school work or fill out job applications when I want to procrastinate).

<3